The big snack challenge.

I struggle each night at work and it's all because of these... 

They stand strong all in a row, an army of vending machines full of temptations. They are full of soft drink, chocolate and chips and are cheaper than normal which is their secret weapon. 

So i have my own weapons at my desk to fight this army, i have herbal teas and fruit but for some reason the glow of these machines draws me in like a moth and i have no idea how. 

The best way i have found to manage them is to empty my pockets before work so i have no money to feed them. Sure i don't have to go into the kitchen where they are but even if i don't go in there, i know they are there, waiting for me. 

So the big snack challenge begins, from today i am going to go 2 weeks without putting a single dollar into these machines. I will stand strong against them and i will win. 

Einstien...

So Einstien's theory on insanity is  "insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results"


Yet this is what i seem to do over and over and over... Insane much??? 


This time i have been trying to follow this theory but it is hard. Old habits and temptations are so hard to beat. Take work for example, i have set myself up with some yummy herbal teas to give me something to have instead of reaching for the lolly box and had some grapes with me to snack on last night but what did i do?? Had my grapes, had my tea AND helped myself to a number of mini mars bars, milky ways and lolly coke bottles, oh wait i think there was even a sherbert in there somewhere, 


Seriously how much do you want it? That's what i am asking myself this morning as i continue the self sabotage by starting my day with wholemeal crumpets toasted with butter, *sigh*, why do i do it? Is it because i just love the taste of food too much, is it because i enjoy feeling full? Is it because i don't want myself to achieve my goal? IS it because i am too damn lazy? 


What ever it is i need to change so i have been looking at what has worked for me in the past and one main thing is Calorie King (CK). Being accountable for the food i put in my mouth and seeing those calories plastered on the screen, knowing that i can't hide from that orange total bar down the bottom of my screen. And exercise. Exercising like a mad woman is the other thing that has worked, given our current circumstances exercise isn't the easiest thing in the world to fit in each day but i am managing and getting more and more creative. 


So i guess today's challenge is to find out if i truely am insane or not!!! Will i do the same thing i have always done and continue my binge then be annoyed when the scales don't go down which is what i have always done or will i step up and realise that all is not lost by a couple of crumpets.

Insane or Not? 

Before.

So these are my before shots, taken at 67kg. Eeewww, makes me want to vomit. So not a good look. Not only do i want to slim down but i want to tone up aswell. 

The back shot is the worst for me. :-( Those bulging arms and underarm bits and the roll under my bra line. :-(

So use it Kim, use it as motivation...

Here is am again

Here i am AGAIN. Trying to lose weight, struggling with the whole thing.

So who am i.

My name is Kimberly and i am 27 years old and most importantly i am mum to two beautiful babies, Regan (3) and Boston (1).

My whole life i have struggled with weight and eating right. I have always had to work so hard to maintain an average weight and even then i am still slightly bigger than most and bigger than what i want to be.

I have always been active, dancing and exercising and its something that i love. So much so i completed my certificate 3 in fitness and would love to work in the fitness industry. I hope to complete certificate 4 in the second half of this year.

So anyway this blog is to help me stay on track, to try and help me be honest with myself and ultimately achieve my goals.

What is my goal? Well my goal has always been 60kg, i have flirted with 60kg maybe once or twice but never actually hit that magic number for a few years actually a lot of years. I'm not like most people trying to lose weight or doing weight loss blogs because i don't have HUGE amounts of weight to lose, i am currently 66.6kg so only have 6.6kg to lose but i don't find there is a lot of support out there for people with smaller amounts of weight to lose so why not create the support for myself.


Kim